Friday, 29 November 2013

will be away for a while

Hi All

we are hoping that my mum is coming home from hospital this Monday, I am moving home to nurse her, we have been told she does not have long left and I always promised her that she would never die in hospital or go into a home and I would nurse her, so that is what I will be doing, its going to be hard, it is different when I was a nurse, caring was easier as I was not involved personally,  anyway thats it for now, I will be back but for now my mum comes first xx

Sunday, 24 November 2013

We now know

Hi All

Well we now know, mum's cancer is spreading, she has small cell carcinoma in her lungs and breast bone, they want her to start chemo immediately, she asked to have the weekend to think about it, but when she got home the hospital rang and wanted her to come in, she had bloods taken and the results were not good and they needed her in to monitor her and to get her bloods back to normal. I went to see her yesterday and was shocked, she looked very grey and very ill, in a few days she had changed so much.
Mum has made a decision and has decided she does not want to have the treatment, she had spoken to the doctor that morning and has been told she has about 6mths,  she may change her mind, but for now we have to accept her decision and make the most of the time we have left with her, it will be very hard. By the time we left we had got mum laughing and joking, my dad and I spoke about it on the way home, and he is going to tell the rest of the family her decision.

On a bit better note, I finished my stable, thank god I have minis to keep me sane and occupied.
I am very pleased with this project, I always wanted a horse so this had made my dream come true, even though it is in mini, I have my imagination. Have a look